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 Post subject: And for the update...
PostPosted: December 9th, 2008, 8:10 am 
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I think I have made it through the 17 months of heck - well, at least I am seeing a little clearer.

Summary:

My wife starts talking about separation/divorce in '06. I kind of lose it - lose several clients - in hindsight, probably should have been on anti-anxiety meds or taken up drinking (just kidding).

'07 becomes a professional malaise while simultaneously writing a lot of songs and playing out a bit.

July (whoa july) '07:
1) mini-flood in house (hot water heater's valve blows) - due to water pressure
2) plumber replacing pressure valve lights fire in wall - I am out playing music and discover it on my return
3) fire department arrives as flames burst from wall and proceed to take out about 8 feet of wall.
4) move my wife and youngest child out the day prior to our 20th anniversary - our oldest stay with me
5) 3 days later a monsoon storm overflows the wash behind our house,pushes through the back gate, fills our backyard with 4.5 to 5 feet of water, mud and water pours into the house about 2.5 feet worth - destroying literally everything I own (several guitars, computers, equipment, etc.) except my latptop and my primary guitar - the one my two oldest kids had purchased for me.

Ironically, we were NOT in a flood plane - so no flood insurance. it is a flood plane now. Uh...thanks.

FYI: That's a rough month - but no one was injured and I consider it an odd blessing.

My wife and I go back and forth - date each other - stop - again - stop. No details forthcoming but in June we were divorced. :(

I still contend with a lot of confusing or conflicting emotion - and have decided that I won't view our marriage as anything but a great love story that had to end - As I wrote in a song:

"There is sweetness in this heartache
and I treasure the loneliness
that infects my sleepness evenings
and puts my sanity to the test."


FYI: I am not enamored with that final line - but will stick with it for now.

The upside is that I am out playing and writing a lot of music and have been hired several times including recently opening for a national act. Last weekend I was approached by a publisher about pitching 3 of my songs for movies... And he has only seen 4 of my songs.

And I have won some new consulting deals - and actually started sleeping through the night a couple months ago. I also made a concerted effort to reconnect with family and friends I had self-exiled myself from.

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PostPosted: December 9th, 2008, 12:44 pm 
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So sorry Matt. Had a year like that myself of sorts (no divorce, just lots of deaths). Let's you and I toast the New Year that 2009 is gonna be a whole lot KINDER to us! HUGS

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Glad you're back, Matt. Sorry that life has been so tough! May God bless you with joy in 2009.

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Matt, That is rough, but the amazing thing is your attitude, keep it up! I know things will start getting better for you, especially with your outlook.

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Oh ouch, that's rough. I hope 2009 has great things and much happiness in store for you.

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Wishing you nothing but good things, Matt. I'm glad you're using your musical talent.
Praying you'll have healing, hope and good sleep in 2009.
Don't be such a stranger in the future.


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Wishing you nothing but good things, Matt. I'm glad you're using your musical talent.
Praying you'll have healing, hope and good sleep in 2009.
Don't be such a stranger in the future.


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PostPosted: December 10th, 2008, 7:50 am 
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Thanks - really wasn't seeking sympathy - I carry this overblown ego around in my back pocket that doesn't allow that. More just a review of where I was this past year.

I am excited about how the year is ending, current projects, and future prospects.

Probably as important as anything is a reaffirmation of putting a system in place for my writing - both music and other projects.

The system involves a fairly regimented schedule for the things I want to achieve - writing down my list/plan for the day and then forcing exclusion of things that distract:

for instance:
no internet browser open;
no chat open;
no twitter open;
no email open;
a brick and mortar list (week at a few calendar);

And don't over-fill the daily list of tasks. Give some time for float or for things to go wrong or for disasters or for whatever. That is critical because planning for those unplanned events - well - they are suddenly part of the plan.

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Good luck with no sympathy here! You're amongst a group of highly empathic women! LOL!

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PostPosted: December 10th, 2008, 8:52 am 
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YES!!!!!

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Apologies for the double-postings - don't quite know how that happened.
Offering you good thoughts and best wishes doesn't always mean I see you as an object of pity, mate. ok?
I'm impressed with how organized/disciplined you sound. Hope that lasts as long as you need it to; never does with me. But you're a whole different kettle of fish. :) Good on ya.


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PostPosted: December 11th, 2008, 7:18 am 
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Wendy (all),

No no - not a problem. The kind words are nice - believe me. I just wanted you and everyone to know I was not crumpled in the corner - a mass of tear-soaked flesh. You know - fetal positioned thumb-sucking. Well, not anymore. ;)

Thank you. I have nothing but gratitude for all the well-wishers.

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Wow, sounds like a tough year. Good to see you back, and here's hoping that 2009 is filled with promise and possibility.

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Matthew: good luck with everything and it's good to hear from you. Keep your resilence, sense of humor and persistence. The writing regimen sounds wonderful. Hope the New Year is good for you.

Colleen

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As Wila Cather said There are some years that ask questions and some years that answer.

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