Ya know, I downloaded the free book, over 100 pages, spent over 3 hours reading it, & was only on page 40 something & I just can't read anymore.
Maybe I am just too upset about my life, & I want fast answers, I don't know. But, I really am at a point where I feel there is no way out & that book, though very good, really made me feel worse, & not only worse, it made me feel scared- very scared.
I use to have a full time job. Actually, I worked just about 50-70 hours a week! I made more money than my husband did, then he got into an accident, & the 1400$ morgage we had at the time, I did not even come close to making enough to pay it. So, we ended up losing our home & moving to the state we are now, which my mom lives in. She owned 2 houses, one of which she live in & one of which she rented to us. Eventually, we got back on our feet. My husband was able to go back to work, though I could not find a job.
5 years later, my husband has numerous girlfriends, is abusive & I have to beg him for money for food to feed the kids & pay the bills. I don't even eat just to save food....oh & that reminds me... a while back he would stay gone (which he still does)-so long that me & the kids had no food, my mom would help of course, but I had to get some outside help. That help was Welfare. Guess what, he was never home & never did anything for us, so I told the welfare he wasn't there. Well, He came home just enough to get get me in trouble with the state. I had to pay back every dime I ever got from them. So, even though I REALLY needed help, he came home-so my welfare case was considered as fraudulant, I guess you could say.
I am terrified to even attemp to get any help now. I don't know what to do.
Here it is Christmas, we have no tree, no presents for the kids, BUT he has a brand new truck he purchased a month ago. Go figure.
Please pray for me & my kids, & please- if you have any advice- I am all ears!!